I’m tired of resetting the clock.  I’ve run out of excuses.  This was a horrible week for getting back in shape.  And you know what? So was last week…and the week before that, and before that, etc.  I’ve put this damn thing off so many times thinking I’ll just start over, then I continue to fall way off track.

I’ve received enough signs today that the time to seriously get back on track is now.

• My clothes can’t stand carrying another pound.
• My “fat” jeans are feeling a bit comfy.
• I’m having trouble sleeping at night.
• I’m not eating healthy at all, although I’ve made attempts over the past couple of months.
• I feel unhealthy

Today was the day I finally took the “before” photos, but these are the real bad ones…shirt off and only wearing some gym shorts.  After looking at them, I darn near broke down.  I can’t believe it’s gotten this bad.  I’m just way too embarrased to even post them here.  I will probably show them later, when you can see definite results.  This is almost as bad as my worst, and I’m only 15 pounds from that! I’ve gained about 20 pounds since I left St. Louis, and that was not the direction I planned on.

I have to be more disciplined than ever before, and cannot let stress overtake my life!  The bottom line is that I’m tired of going through the motions of life, and I’m ready to live it!  This is supposed to be the best years of my life, and I’m trapped inside this huge body!  I feel like it’s shortening my life! Isn’t this just awful?!

I’m ready to face it now. It’s just too sad the way it is.  I’m willing to face whatever it takes and must focus on my goal to do this right.  I know what it takes to do it, and I must stick to it. All I want is to be normal weight, according to BMI, which is 178 pounds.

THE PLAN:

• I will use SparkPeople.com to log my food and exercise.
• I will stick religiously to my diet plan (with 6 alarms with my Blackberry software that tells me when to eat).
• I will workout 4-5 days a week, or run, swim, take cardio classes.
• I will weigh in each Sunday and put results on my weight loss tracker page, along with a wrap up blog.
• I will take many headshots at DailyMugShot.com.
• I will post results from time to time on my Twitter feed.

Starts May 9. Ends November 22 (Sunday before Thanksgiving). Total loss of 78 pounds.

Checkpoints:

• Lose 4 pounds a week until June 28: 228
• Lose 3 pounds a week until September 6: 198
• Lose 2 pounds a week until November 8: 180
• Lose 1 pound a week until November 22: 178